Friday, May 18, 2007


Thank you Mari and Liz for the support it's nice to know that you aren't alone. Liz thank you for the ideas I will definitely look into it!
Life has funny ways of teaching you lessons, I've recently learned that I need to be appreciative for all the wonderful things I have in my life. I have a wonderful little boy and a great husband. It may be hard not having a house or toys but all of these things mean nothing if you don't have your family.
I always like to start out positive before I go to the negative <: How in the heck did I end up with Beau? I love him I really do and he makes me laugh and is great with Isaac plus he's been working really hard lately for which I am grateful but man he knows how to push my buttons!!! I've been feeling very distant from him. He doesn't show interest in anything I do, he's very unappreciative and I am going to loose my mind. On Sunday he had to work which I am SOOOO grateful he's taking care of us but at what cost? He had the attitude he HAD to do something for Mother's Day even though he didn't...We haven't been out since Feb.14th. It's really bothering me that he rarely does something nice for me. It's almost like a chore for him then he wants "blankety blank".
I know that leaving notes or random stuff for him may be corny and not something he enjoys but at least I'm trying!!!!
The last time he bought me flowers was..... well I can't remember I'd say my birthday but he didn't MARI DID!!! The only reason we went out on Valentine's day was because he got free tickets to a hockey game!!!! (my first, it was fun but wouldn't of been my choice.)
I'm not looking for sympathy I just hope maybe someone that reads this will have some ideas or suggestions I am at my !@#*! whits end with him!!!!!
I feel better just writing it down this is a hard subject for us to talk about!! Well thanks for listening and thanks for all of your love and support it means alot!!!!! Love and wisdom............. Jeanna

Sunday, May 13, 2007

If you read my last blog I forgot to read and check it, so if it has words out of place SORRY. Better luck next time right?

Being a mom and other stuff

Today is another day but lately I have been very concerned about how well Isaac is talking it seems that most two and a half year old kids are talking very well and Isaac only says a few words. I have tried reading to him a lot more and getting him out to be around other kids but no improvements yet. I feel like I am failing as a mother. He is a wonderful little boy and I love him more than my own life (as a lot of other people say about their own). I don't know what else to do a random lady I talked to said she had the same problem but out her little girl in a program that has made a huge difference, but I don't know were I would get the money to do something like that so if anyone who reads this has any suggestions I'd love to hear them!!!!!
Summer is here and so is the heat which I can't make up my mind whether it's a good thing or's good that we can finally go outside and play and it's hot enough that I just sweat. I wish that I could loose all of this "baby fat" (I probably can't get away with that seeing as it's been over 2 YEARS since I've had a baby :}) it's always nice to see all these girls with close covering every inch of their bodies (J/K) I hate not being skinny I would literally sell my soul to look like I did a couple of years ago. Funny how I'd sell my soul but won't go to the gym!!! I like the easy way out.
Lastly I've been down maybe it's because I think back and all the fun things I did when I was single when it was summer, I think of how I wanted a family and to be married and now, I'm driving myself cray with money issues that never go away and weight problems, mothering, relationship problems, it seems that there isn't a way out of this hole, people always say that love can conquer all but I don't think who ever said that couldn't pay their bills and had NO credit..... if they did they might say " love is nice to have".
Well for now I'm off to ponder the future.